God's Silence

Bible Reading: 1 Samuel 28:3-25; 31; 2 Samuel 1; 4:4; 1 Chronicles 10:13-14

"Saul died because he was unfaithful to the Lord; he did not keep the word of the Lord and even consulted a medium for guidance, and did not inquire of the Lord. So the Lord put him to death and turned the kingdom over to David son of Jesse" (1 Chron. 10:13-14).

God was displeased with Saul because he consulted a sorceress for advice instead of inquiring of the Lord. Saul DID inquire of the Lord, but he became desperate when God didn't answer right away. He decided any advice was better than no advice, even if it came from an evil source forbidden by the Lord. When the sorceress brought up Samuel from the grave, Samuel said that God had turned away from Saul because Saul didn't obey him. Several other times during his reign, Saul had become impatient for God's response or had disregarded God's instruction when he did speak. Saul would take matters into his own hands and do what seemed good in his own eyes instead of waiting on the Lord and obeying his voice. God had rebuked him more than once for his rebellion, arrogance and disobedience. Saul wanted God's blessings, but he wasn't willing to obey him.

I went through several years of my life feeling that God was silent. Yet, when I look back, I can see the trace of his hand in my life. He wasn't giving me the answers I wanted to hear, so I thought he wasn't listening. He wasn't changing my situation the way I wanted him to, so I thought he didn't care. But, looking back, I know he was there, and he was working in my life, leading me to the place he wanted me to be. I just couldn't see it because it wasn't what I was looking for or what I wanted. I wanted him to break the silence with some big miracle, but he spoke to me in a whisper and gradually opened my eyes to his presence and guidance in my life.

Lord, when you seem to be silent, draw me into your peaceful presence. When I'm impatient for you to bring change into my life, keep me from chasing after the impulse of my emotions. When I'm disobedient, reveal your heart to me and draw me to repentance. Calm my fears and anxieties so I can hear your still small voice. Open my eyes to see you working in my life. Broaden my understanding and deepen my faith while I wait for you.